What's kickin' with cupcake: 9weeks..

so i'm actually 9 weeks and 5 days i believe.. i had my dr's appointment wednesday.. pap okay, blood okay, i'm fine. i got chastised for not eating..but i'm a busy girl working and all... but i have to do better by my cupcake. he deserves the 10 meals he wants lol i swear my stomach growls all day everyday now.

anyway back to the dr's visit...

did the pee pee test.. and i had to get antibiotics to clear up a UTI... (urinary tract, icky) i figured i had one though... i could smell the nitrate.. (TMI, i know)

anyway. he's a few like 2.5 centimeters long and his heartbeat was louder than the first one.
so YEAH.. IT'S REAL... omg.. i'm really pregnant..i'm really carrying another human inside me.... i'm really working on becoming a mom, i'm still looking for a job so i can take care of my baby.. that's the hard part :-/its so hard when you don't have that unconditional support from family and i actually feel bad for putting them through this. like... i feel selfish cuz i'm bringing a baby in this world that depends on me and i have to depend on family and i'm just praying for job number 2.... i need job number 2 to make it through this first year..i can't do it alone like this. ( and the tears start rolling) but i also lost weight too.. hmm.. i thought i'm supposed to GAIN weight.... and my constipation went to diarrhea i think thats from my UTI medicine.. and i need to pick up my pills ( prenatal) soon, and to go and get my medicaid re-done having to depend onppl to type letters and shit... i could've had this stuff done earlier... hopefully i can get things done this week or next week. i really have to make sure i get my bed and things... i switch subjects like it aint nothin' lol

back to baby cupcake
. 3 weeks is my next check up for birth defects i'm praying that he's free of those :)
so... according to alphamom.com he's the size of a grape, i can seriously go for one of those right now.. lol i'm hungry as hell.. they also said maybe the size of a cocktail olive too... i'd kill for a martini... but it'd have to wait until january.. lol lil cupcake has fingers toes eyelids and ears Babycenter.com said the same thing but went into depth about what's going on in the uterus.. interesting shit... lol anyway.. i think i'm going to post on this 3d labor and trimester thing i'm about to watch.. that is i if i don' fall asleep first

say hey to cupcake ya'll! that's him... u can kinda see his head.. lil nubs for arms and on the pic lil nubs for legs... bu hey.. it's a picture of a picture.. sue me! lol i'm sure some of the baby pro's can decipher what is what better than i can lol
that's all for now!
XOXO
cupcake and me